Friday, November 12, 2010

58 and holding

I got my birthday present early. Dave will be hunting on my birthday, as usual, so he gave me a present early. This is highly unusual. I usually get nothing because he's hunting and I guess I can only have a birthday if he's with me ON my birthday....... I digress.


I have figured out that my husband will not remember the things that I think are important so I have to tell him what I want- exactly what I want. Then neither of us is stressed. AND we're both happier.

I drew out my age with little lines so my preschoolers could SEE how old I am. They were impressed with my line of 58 marks. Later at snack one of the kids said, "Miss Judy's 81" I guess 81 is a lot just like 58. I can't believe I am almost 60. That's AMAZING to me!!! I plan to enjoy the next 58 years as much as I've enjoyed the last 58 years.

Like is grand!!!

Monday, September 6, 2010

How Can You Mend a Broken Heart.......

What do you say to a girlfriend who finds out her husband, that she's devoted to, has been using "porn" as his partner instead of her? Perhaps I hurt so much for her because I've heard her tell others "Our relationship is based on trust." "I don't keep things from my husband." "I love my husband." She's so devoted to him and he's been ignoring her and spending his time cultivating relationships with "other women" on-line. She feels betrayed, hurt, sad, sad, sad.... I think the worst thing for her is she's been telling him for 10 years that she felt something was wrong and he told her it's just the cycle that all men go through- the just slow down. Can you believe she caught him once and he said it was the only time he'd ever done it and he'd never do it again. Then three years later she finds out he'd been doing it for TEN YEARS! He thinks she should just "Get over it." I am wondering if I am not a good person to talk to because I may be too old and don't get the on-line sex thing. Mostly I don't like to see my friends so sad. She's just an empty shell right now. Her questions- how do you build the trust back (after he's lied for 10 years), why did he not talk to her, is it over, how could he lie to her when she talked to him the last ten years about feeling like their sex problems were all her fault and he knew what was wrong the whole time. I once watched a movie that said, "All men are liars." I guess I'm too much of a dreamer to accept that. Uh-oh, this got a little long. Okay ladies, let me know if I'm too old to counsel this young mom........ oh she's also upset because they have 4 children. He says he's never done anything when they were around but she can't believe him. He's mad at her because she continues to ask him questions about the "whys". It's been one week and she'd talked to him 3 times. MEN!

Monday, August 23, 2010

Giants Steps

I walked almost 5000 steps today. That is my highest since Katie and Stacey got me my pedometer. I like that I did it without trying. That was day #1 of preschool.

After doing that and eating great all day I got 4 dozen cookies at Eileens. I only ate 3. No 4. One chocolate/chocolate chunk, one oatmeal raisin, one monster, one choc/choc. Is that pathetic or what? Well, I will try again tomorrow. Dave will have them eaten by the time I get home............. did I tell you I figured out we need to eat opposite diets? Dave- low fat (cuz he has high cholesterol) and Judy- low carbs (cuz I have fat around my middle). And of course I cook the way Dave likes to eat. So now I have to figure out how to cook without having to cook two different meals. ........... I can do it.

For my warm up- me, me, me, me and a right, kick, left, kick turn repeat. Get in shape girl. One step for the pedometer one giant step toward fitness in 2010.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

31 Years Ago

31 years ago we were at a youth ice cream social at our church. We were the youth sponsors and we had made homemade ice cream and cupcakes for the event. I didn't get my kitchen cleaned before we left and when we got home Dave said, "Just go to bed. I went to bed only to awaken a few hours later with a back ache- big deal, I'd made ice cream and cupcakes, helped at an ice cream social, taken care of a 17 month old and was one week overdue to have my 2nd child, who wouldn't have a back ache? Dave awoke cuz I was restless. He flew out of bed, said we were going to the hospital, called his parents to come watch son #1 and we left. I was hysterical because he wouldn't wait for his parents to make the 2 mile trip to our house. I couldn't believe we left our child alone (Dave told me could see his parents head lights coming down the road.) and was even more upset because I wasn't having contractions. 5 miles from the hospital I had my first contraction. 4 contractions later we were in the ER entryway having our baby. Scott David was born at 4:14 a.m. He was such a calm little guy. His big brother loved him so much. Our family was complete and I was the happiest mom on earth. Everyone said I didn't look like I'd just had a baby. The day I got home from the hospital I put the boys down for naps and went out to mow (it was my routine). Dave came out and asked what I thought I was doing. I realized maybe I was pushing it but I felt like a million bucks. I was so happy to be a mom and it just kept getting better............ to be continued 4/29/11.

Friday, July 30, 2010

Out with the Old

I had to help move my 84 year old mother out of her apartment- I WILL NOT LEAVE JUNK FOR MY CHILDREN TO CLEAN UP WHEN I MOVE. I enjoyed going through things with my sister but this is the third time we've gone through the same "stuff". So now I have a garage full of my/our stuff to get out of my life. We have 15 rooms in our home and I've gone through 13 of them- bath, shower, master, girls, boys, tv room (minus the board games), rec room, kitchen, living room/dining room, family room, utility room, & store room. That leaves- guest room (my mess), school room (my mess), & den (our mess). Next will be the garage. I am hoping Dave will help but if not I've done it alone before so I know I can do it again.

THEN.............. it's time for school to start and I have to clean my classroom, too.

Less is more! I want less and less- out with the old and in with the nothing!

Saturday, March 6, 2010


I hate being out of energy. I must regain my "Zest".

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Coming Back

Stacey got a job in NE and will be moving back from FLA. People ask me all the time how I feel about her being so far away or don't I wish she'd move back. I've tried not to go there. I try to be happy for my children when they make choices. I want them to all be in my home all the time but I know I'd smother who they could be so I am more than happy to just enjoy seeing them enjoy their life experiences. (I am happy Stacey's returning to NE because that's what SHE wants.)

Now, if she could just bring some sunshine with her...............

Sunday, February 21, 2010


I love being a mom. I love being a Mimi. I love being a wife. I got to spend a day with Katie and her family. I could just sit and watch all day. I love to watch the interactions- between children, wife and husband, parent and child, child and toys. I also got to talk to Brett on the way home. We talked about Celie. He's such a great dad. He wants the world for Celie and he doesn't want to screw things up. It makes me so joyous to know he is taking being a "family man" so seriously. I am so thankful for the blessings I've received as a mom and wife. I have been hard on my children and my husband but I hope they know how much I love them. Not love but something so deep I can't find the bottom of it. I think it is close to God's Love, yes that's just what it is God's Love through my family to me. Thank you, God!

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

See you, Kim.

When I started early childhood special education I was told to prepare for the death of a student because our students are often fragile. Yesterday one of my former students died. I've been sad, sad, sad. It was Kim. She had a stroke when she was four. She could do on her own was blink and breath. I can still remember how her family and community tried so very hard to help her get back some of the skills she had before the stroke. She got little tiny parts back. But only those of us who worked with her regularly would notice. I let her touch snow. She seemed to smiled and reach for it. We smelled flowers, touched feathers, counted fuzzy bunnies, touched velvet abc's and read and read. My heart is so heavy.............. but I know she's running and laughing and FREE!!! I love you Kim. I can't believe you were 22. I thought you were still 4...................

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Today I Learned

WHAT I LEARNED TODAY- when you want a child to try new food 1) kiss it, 2) bite it, 3) put a bite in your mouth but you can spit it out 4) chew it but you can then spit it out 5) chew & swallow. This could take a month, make sure they are comfortable at one stage before moving to the next. I know this is for severely impaired children but I think it's good for all children. THAT'S WHAT I LEARNED!

Sunday, February 7, 2010

My Ear Hurts and I Can't Enjoy the Scenery

I have had an earache for.............. a long time, I think maybe since Thanksgiving. I'm been on antibiotics and different antibiotics and it's still hurting. So I'm going to the ent dr. I have also been to the dentist but she says it's not my teeth. I think I'll go back to my old dentist and see if he agrees. I just want it to feel better.

I noticed that I love to see the earth covered in clean snow. But I also am getting a stiff neck driving to school almost every day. So I'm trying to figure out how to enjoy the scenery and ignore that the roads are yucky/dangerous. Oh yeah, I can't cuz I drive in the dark!!!

Friday, January 29, 2010

Cel-e-brate good times, come on!

The Denver Danglers are on their way. I'm so excited to see them!!! They are going to Scott's game and I get to stay with Celie! Stacey is on her way to Ne also. I can't wait to see everyone.

I have a real problem missing my children/grandchildren. I keep working on it but I just can't get over it. I miss them!!

I'll write later about our together time.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

To Health and Toilets

Went to the dr with Dave today and his groan pain was due (most likely) to a pulled tendon. Cure for this problem is- wear a jock and ice at night (I know tmi). So I figure I'll just put my ice cold feet in that spot every night, which by the way I'm forbidden to touch him anywhere with my cold feet.

Tonight I'm cleaning the bathrooms. I must admit I love to clean toilets, MY toilets. I used ajax and vinegar and pumice and they look so nice and clean- DONE! I think I like cleaning bathrooms because when I'm done I know everything is really clean. When I clean the living room I dust and vacuum BUT is it really clean and disinfected? I think not. But I really think you could eat off my toilet when I'm done.............. oh my I'm getting carried away with this!!!!

Well, today I'm thankful for Dave's good health and clean toilets. Both could change in a short time but that's okay, for today I'm feeling blessed for both Dave, healthy or not and toilets, clean or not.

Monday, January 25, 2010

These are a few of my favorite things.NOT!

Dave has been having some pain in his lower abdomen so he's going to the dr tomorrow. He doesn't know it but I'm going with him. He won't like that but that's okay- I AM going with him. So that means I have to have a sub. The things I don't like- Dave's got a health problem, Dave is going to the dr, I am keeping something from him, I had to get ready for a sub. I have always been proud of the fact that I don't keep things from Dave. I talk openly about how I spend money, feel about things, my political or religious beliefs, how to raise/nurture our children, etc. He doesn't always talk back but he doesn't roll his eyes or tell me he thinks I'm stupid. I honestly get the feeling that he's in awe of me being able to verbalize my thoughts and feelings.

I have decided I will only discuss my fitness/healthy eating on Fridays. Otherwise I will make myself nuts. So you can skip Fridays if you want to skip my prattle.

GOOD NEWS- Our preschoolers were so sweet today. They always are but today they were full of hugs and sweet words. I even had a couple bat their eyes at me. I LOVE MY JOB!!!

Sunday, January 24, 2010

"Sun" day

We've been having a lot of foggy days. The fog lasts all day. I don't usually mind days without sun but I must admit it's been foggy too long. Today the sun came out. It made the house seem cleaner, the food tasted better and I felt almost giddy. So, I'm thankful for the sunshine today.

I remember standing at my kitchen window while our kids grew up. I'd look out the window and enjoy the scenery. Now the trees have grown and I can only see across the road. I miss seeing the pasture and the cows. I've asked Dave to cut some of the trees down so I can see farther. He said he would. I'm so happy!!

Right now it's snowing and the wind is blowing 30-40 miles per hour. I guess that's what makes Nebraskans so steady. We have been conditioned to acclimate to changes (in weather) in short periods of time. I'm glad I live in Nebraska and am thankful for the people that go out into such extreme weather to take care of me and the people I love. Thank you!!!

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Yadda, yadda, yadda..........

Well, here I go. I am doing my first blog. I feel very powerful because I am doing something that I've figured out on my own (just a little help from MBG). I want everyone to know that I am so blessed and wish for them to feel the same which makes every day a joyous day!

I have been in a rut the last few years.......... not sure why but I blame it on many things- loss, empty nest, children moving away, inattentive husband, physical calamities, menopause, lack of spiritual nurturing, etc. Perhaps I let myself be used up by others and now I don't have anything left for me. BUT I believe that I will regroup and be the best ME very soon. Watch out, I'm not sure what is going to happen but I know it will be awesome!!!